New Energy

I’ve been thinking a lot about life and what I want to do, but I haven’t really gotten anywhere. The whole world seems to be in flux anyway. So it’s a perfect time be confused along with everyone else. I’m finding that I need to strap down everything I can to stay sane. But even as I strap things down more things fly away.

I have 3 big tentpole creative projects that I hardly ever work on, but that take up a significant chunk of my mental energy. I recently added a 4th. And yet I don’t think I’ve so much as touched any of the first 3 this year. That needs to change. I always feel more energized when I work on any of these. I need to keep reminding myself of that fact. Plus if I ever actually finish one of these my soul will feel so much lighter.

My Dad passed away in April and he left behind a lot of unfinished projects. We were very close and I’m happy that I was able to do so many things with him. He even got to see the Crew win one more game. But I wish I had helped him finish more of his projects. I guess that’s why I’m now even more worried about not seeing my own projects through.

Miniatures

I recently 3D printed a set of space marines and plague marines to use for Kill Team. I even managed to play a pair of learning games. I’ve continued to refine their paint jobs after initially priming them blue and pale green respectively. I also have two official Kill Teams assembled - Strike Team Variel (from the blind boxes), and XV26 Stealth Battlesuits. I even primed the Tau.

Learning Kill Team has been an extremely distracting side project as I get a miniature collection together to play Space Station Zero, which I have played only a couple of maps of so far. And then I ended up with a much bigger distraction.

Big tent project number 4 is my new Eldar army, of which I have around 1000 points purchased but unassembled. I violated a hard rule I had about the number of unpainted minis I’m willing to own at once to buy this army, but for a very good reason.

The man who founded the comic store I’ve gone to since I was 6 passed away. I’ve known him for basically my entire life. These Eldar were his. They’re all 3rd edition or older. I don’t really even know what his plan was for them, but I want to get them built, painted, and run them in an event as a way to remember him and celebrate his life.

I will still play Space Station Zero somewhere in there, and Kill Team too. I might aim for One Page Rules instead of real 40k for the Eldar, although those events are much fewer and further between.

Reading

I’m in the middle of reading the final volume Ascendance of a Bookworm. The series remains phenomenal. There’s even a spin off. But I still find myself dragging my feet. I’ve never been one for endings.

Most of the rest of my reading time has been spent reading the lore half of an old 8th edition Warhammer 40k rulebook that I got for cheap. After that I’ll be reading the lore half of an old Eldar codex to catch up on what it means to be an Eldar player.

Movies

We saw the Mobile Suit Gundam Hathaway The Sorcery of Nymph Cerce and Backrooms in theaters since I last wrote.

Hathaway was somewhat impenetrable compared to the previous movie, connecting more directly to earlier UC stories, which I don’t know well, while also having a big symbolic dream sequence and a weirdly long rich-girl-furnishing-a-house montage.

Backrooms was great! I kind of wish it had less plot? Any other criticisms would lead to spoilers. So I’ll say that it is flawed but excellent. I will probably get the bluray. I don’t even like horror normally.

The Journey Continues

Normally I try to add links to everything I mention, but I’m totally out of time and energy. I will use what time I have left today to put in a little effort on one of these